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"This is Scott Summers. Leave a message after the tone."

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[thetruefocus]

I know you've been fighting and drinking. Are you letting anyone in right now? You shouldn't be alone.

[opticular]

I can handle things just fine.

[ Thing is, he knows someone (Ororo) has been cleaning after him. He just doesn't know who it is. His bruises and cuts from the Dome don't get infected (for now) even when they don't appear to be healing, mostly because he doesn't stop from fighting. ]

[thetruefocus]

And what if you can't? Will you turn to anyone?

[opticular]

[ This time, his answer comes relatively late. After about two to three hours. ]

I don't know.

[ Which is probably the most truthful way he can put it. He really doesn't know if he's ready to actually let someone in right now. ]

[thetruefocus]

There has to be someone here who you've met that you feel you can turn to.

[opticular]

[ Thing is, he probably has a few people but Scott doesn't want to burden them with this. Non-mutants will never understand their plight. What they go through.

His next reply comes a little quicker than others. ]

I'll be fine, Professor.

If it helps, I'll come find you when it's too much.

[ Thing is, he's not sure about this either. But if it will help ease Charles' worries even a little, he'll tell him what he'd like to know. ]

[thetruefocus]

You could come find me for any reason. Even no reason. My door is always open to you.

[opticular]

[ It's hard to be spiraling down while being angry at someone you respected, admired, and loved. While also mindful of not disappointing them. This is all very complicated in a way Scott never expected. And yet here he is wallowing in his own misery.

His next reply doesn't come late. ]

I know.

[ It's tough to reconcile his love for Charles and the feeling of betrayal that's still simmering under the surface. ]

[thetruefocus]

I'm sorry I let you down.

[opticular]

[ When he receives this message, Scott takes five hours before replying. Mostly because he needs to drink to somehow be alright with the fact Charles is apologizing to him for letting him down. Even when Scott has every right to feel betrayed. ]

I forgive you, Professor. But I need time.

[ To forget. To accept his fate in the future. To be alright with the fact that this was hidden from him. ]

[thetruefocus]

[ Charles is feeling many things about this, none of them good, all of them guilty or regretful, but worried above all things. In truth, he's glad Scott replied to him in the first place, but what to say or do to make this better is beyond him.]

I don't want you to be alone.

I know he's Magneto, but I also know that Erik cares for you, and he was upset about your situation. Would you consider reaching out to him if you have no one else?

[opticular]

[ The mention of Erik surprises Scott a little. While he's generally fine with the guy, and actually managed to let him in that one time, he's one of the last person he'd want to confide in or turn to. Even when he doesn't doubt Charles' words. ]

I don't think so.

I'm fine alone. [ Sorry, Charles. He's going to be pretty stubborn about this. ]

[thetruefocus]

You're not alone, Scott. Not really. Just remember that.

[opticular]

[ Scott almost replied another I know to Charles' text, but he ultimately deletes it, and chooses not to reply at all. Sorry Charles. It's hard to remember he's not alone when he feels like he is, consumed by a kind of grief and anger he can't quite get a hold of. Can't quite fathom during some days.

In the end, he's just not ready to come out of being a hermit. Not when his misery clouds his judgment. ]